Autumn

I’m not sure how this will go, but life seems to be that way right now. We hit our stride, then trip and fall down and need a plan to get back up. I am planning, at least for today, to periodically write here on Autumn’s blog. I am hopeful it will be helpful, an additional way to walk through the wilderness of grief for me and perhaps it will be positive for some of you also.

An older gentleman at the grief group I attend made a clarifying distinction for me. I was sharing how difficult it is to keep the metaphorical train on the tracks these days. Most days feel crazy. Paraphrasing what he said – “you’re not on the same train anymore – the one you were on stopped / crashed / burned. Like it or not, you’re on a new train and it’s going to different places than the last train.” It’s true, I know, but difficult to accept.

This was Autumn’s favorite time of year – autumn. Go figure :). I captured these mums a few days ago in our front yard in Indiana – they were some of Autumn’s favorites – both the color and the flower.

Mums!

For those of you who don’t know, Autumn passed away on February 27th of this year. It was the end of a 12+ year heroic battle with grade 2, then grade 3, and finally grade 4 (GBM) brain cancer. She was on hospice, at home and with those she loved.

The grief is overwhelming most of the time. I / we miss her all day every day.

Love and hugs to all of you who loved her.

Andrew

One Comment Add yours

  1. cemming says:

    Weirdly, I was just on here yesterday, checking on her, wondering. I think of Autumn and how we communicated sporadically as adults, tho our teen lives didn’t overlap much. I had no idea she was gone. What a loss! But I’m glad she spent none of her final time here when her heart has always been with you and her girls.

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