Upon arrival he was called over to a table where he signed in, and I went to the ticket counter to purchase a zoo pass. As I was heading over to check out some adorable monkeys near the entrance, I overheard a sophisticated looking lady say, “oh, is that your wife? She can join us …
Tuesday, June 9, 2021 More Ramblings from my broken brain… I read an article on Medium that mentioned a poetry competition for Pride month. I sent it on to Samantha, my daughter, as she writes mind-blowing poems and encouraged her to enter. Unfortunately, the challenge is past due which I should have realized but didn’t. …
I came out in 2015 as a “free-thinker” or “non-theist.” This decision had nothing to do with resenting god/s because of my cancer. My search and questioning started years before I was diagnosed. What I don’t want is to lose friends over who I currently am, although I have lost several. I try to accept …
I am sitting in the car waiting for Makaela while she interviews at Flattop. It’s my least favorite type of restaurant: Mongolian grill type. She got the job! I will try it at least once. Maybe I’ll become a repeat customer. Monday, May 17, 2021 It is the start of the missing chargers. I …
Thursday, April 29, 2021 It is moving day! I have had a headache all morning, so I stayed back to rest at the hotel. I always get scared when I have a headache as I think the tumor may be on the move. It may be growing, but I just had an MRI and what …
Sunday, April 25, 2021 Will the anxiety ever go away on its own? We were sitting at the Friendly Fox for our Saturday morning breakfast ritual, people all around, positive distractions, when wham, I think I had a “mini” seizure and lost consciousness for half of a second. I lost interest in my brisket on …
Saturday, April 10,2021 Andrew is arriving in less than an hour. I am crazy excited to see him. We will be waking up next Saturday in a hotel half-way to Fort Wayne. It is truly unbelievable. Even though I have stage 4 cancer, I am filled with so much hope and joy (most of the …
It’s been a hard day. It started with a misunderstanding between Andrew and me which was quickly resolved, but always painful. We fight passionately, so neither of us were fully recovered when we drove to our happy place, the “Friendly Fox Cafe.” Looking out the window at the bland terrain, we had 12 minutes to …
My morning ritual at the hotel http://autumnmarie.org/wp-content/uploads/2021/03/img_1460.mov Wednesday, Feb 24, 2021 Anxiety is new to me. I don’t know where it is coming from. My prescriptions? My supplements? My last craniotomy? My golden-doodle’s anxiety? I simply do not know. What I do know is that I hate it. It’s all consuming. In certain environments I …
I am going to use my blog to post my current protocol for fighting my GBM as a tool to send people for whom it may assist. I have been reading/researching brain cancer since 2009 after being diagnosed with a low-grade glioma following a grand-Mal seizure. I am not even close to an expert on …